BABA

 It's been 39 days baba and everyone keeps saying you appeared in their dreams and I just sit there and stare at their face

I was supposed to be your favourite daughter and I keep sleeping these days just so I can see you but you never came

I hate it when people sympathise with me and I don't like talking about that day but people keep forcing me and I hate that

I laugh all day but whenever i try to sleep I  keep going back to that day 


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